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Haha. I got really bored sitting around doing nothing, so I decided to check out livejournal since I haven't written anything in it for months. When I checked out my friend's pages... I couldn't believe that you guys are still being true to livejournal! Rock on gals!
Okay, so... Life is sucking. There's so much stress. I think that it's the reason why we're having strokes, heart attacks, etc earlier and earlier. We do eat less healthy... and we do just sit around on our ass all the time... but we also deal with a tremendous amount of stress daily and that wears down the human body. I think that's why we die. Stress.
I am now in a crossroad. I see that I'm ready to transfer to another college with the intent of majoring in health sciences/occupational therapy... but I'm not so sure that is the career choice I want to make. I have a lot of doubt, but a lot of pressure telling me to just leave this forsaken Mount SAC and just move on no matter what the consequence. I can OFFICIALLY say... that I attend Mount STUCK College. I feel stuck. It's really hard to leave... especially if you have been taking semesters upon semesters of classes gearing you towards the health sciences field and then decide that maybe you want to be a teacher instead... having to take many more semesters studying a whole new field. And a whole new set of classes. I feel like sh*t.
Well, besides that, I'm doing alright. Work is okay... and I've discovered and invented new ways that help me feel like time is blowing by really quick. It's worked for the last couple of days I've worked. I think I need a new job though. But, other than that... me and Shin are doing dandy. We haven't really had a fight in a long time (knock on wood) and that's pretty good. This is officially the longest relationship I've ever been in. It's been over one year and ten months. And we're still going strong! It's amazing, but... it's also God blessed. WHEW!!
Anyway... that's all. I had a heart to heart talk with my dad yesterday, but trust me... no one wants to hear about that. It's just about my .... family. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.. peace out!!!
**oh yeah, and I'm now a vegetarian!
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i haven't written in forever. i did this exact quiz... a while ago.... almost...... a year and a half ago. but i'm going to do it again. just for kicks!
FIRSTS :
best friend: christine kim
car: toyota cressida
date: group movie date with Keye and Katherine
real kiss: kyle
breakup: kyle, around 20 something times
screen name: amkoba
self purchased album: no doubt
funeral: great-grandmother's
pets: 3 dogs
tattoo: none
credit card: ATM/Credit card from Kinecta
true love: i'm changing my answer to Shin. true love doesn't end.
enemy: Carlos
musician you remember hearing in your house: the rasins
LASTS :
cigarette: never
car ride: today
kiss: shin, today
good cry: youth retreat... geyserfest
library book checked out: dont remember
movie seen: old school
beverage drank: water
food consumed: dumplings
crush: shin
Last phone call: shin
Last time showered: a few hours ago
Last shoes worn: sandals
Last cd played: worship CD
Last item bought: fruit
Last annoyance: not being able to sleep... aka right now
Last disappointment: knowing i dont get to see shin tomoro
Last time wanting to die: long time ago. it shall stay that way for GOOD
Last shirt worn: reg. T-shirt
Last website visited: this... livejournal
Last word you said: "OKAY"
Last song you sang: "im on fire" - switchfoot
What is in your cd player?: nuffin muffin
What color socks are you wearing: none
What color of underwear are you wearing?: pinkish
Whats under your bed?: rats and cockroaches.. lol..
What time did you wake up today?: 5am
FUTURE :
Where do you want to go?: live in san diego
What is your career going to be?: optometrist or teaching english in japan
Where are you going to live?: san diego! lol...
How many kids do you want?: 2
What kind of car: VW BUG!!!
CURRENT :
mood: tired
music: television
taste: nuffin
hair: bleh
clothes: pjz
longing: to sleep
desktop picture: a.. wave?
(all time) favorite artist: no clue... saosin, emery
book: tuesdays with morrie, fresh wind, fresh fire!!
color of toenails: clear!!
time wasting wish: to have an easy and clear path set before me
hate: insomnia
My name is: Allison Koba
I may seem: stupid
But I'm really: more dumb than you think... plus im lazy. that makes it all the worse
Sometimes I feel: goofy
In the morning I: wake up for schooll yo!
I like to sleep: yes i do
If I could be doing anything right now I would be: sleeping
Money is: sleeping.. haha.... its MISSING
One thing I wish I had is: martial art skill
One thing I have that I wish I didn't is: asthma
All I need is: God
Love is: in my life =)
If an angel flew into my window at night I would: woot, holler, and have a party
If a demon crashed into my window I would: pray and close my eyes
If I could see one person right now it would be: Jesus
Something I want but I don't really need is: a job
Something I need but I don't really want is: a job
I live for: God
I am afraid of: being alone, losing people
It makes me angry when: bad things happen to good people... or vice versa
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[02 Nov 2004|11:32pm] |
I realized that I haven`t really written in this thing honestly for a while now. I used to write all my feelin`z in it... I used to be more open to more people... now I`m a closed in FREAK who hides emotions from EVERYONE, includin` myself. I don`t feel as free in xanga... so I`m here for today. Plus... in xanga... I can`t even cuss and it`z somethin` I wanna do right now.... no matter how much cussin` is gay.
FUCK....!!! I`m so freakin` tired of all the shit that goes around and around in my world! Somethin`z are jus HORRIBLE... I don`t need them reoccurring in my life. Maybe... I was wrong the whole time for the past 6 years. I`m so freakin` tired of all this crap! I can`t get away from it! What is it with BOYS? Or maybe... what is it with ME?! Maybe all guys are the fockin` same.... so it`z me that has to learn to deal... what a piece of shit this is. I`m so tired... I need to get away from all of this. No matter who it is on the other end of the line... what comes through to my end is the FUCKIN` SAME!!! To tell YOU honestly, I`ve heard all this before!! I`ve been through all of this before!! I`m so tired of this shhhiiiiiiitttttttt.
I KNOW I need to look to God for strength. I KNOW that I need more faith in what is happenin` to me... but this hurts SO FOCKIN` MUCH! I KNOW it`z wrong to think that I could fix this crap better or faster than God... I know all of this....... but knowin` and believin`.. and trustin` doesn`t ease my heart. Yea, the pain is temporary... my whole life is only temporary..... but.... I`m not satisfied. NOT IN THE LEAST. I`m angry. And I don`t care. My heart is BRUISED from all the beatin`z....... screw you...... screw this repetition in my fuckin` life..... I have to go through the same shit... WELL FINE!! I don`t fuckin` care.... be that way.... I can go through all of this crap.. the crap that makes me feel lower than dirt... used....... and PATHETIC...... PATHETIC!!! ARRRRGGGGGGG.... fuck you!
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[25 Sep 2004|10:58pm] |
++ BASiCS
001. name : allison
002. nicknames : meeko, alli
003. sex : female
004. birthday : january.16th
005. age : 19
006. star sign : capricorn
007. place of birth : fullerton, california
008. current residence : hacienda heights
009. hair color : brownish-black
010. eye color : lightish brown
011. height : 5'4
012. writing hand : righty
++ BODY iLLS & SKiLLS
013. do you bite your nails : yes, but i'm trying not to
014. can you roll your tongue : i learned how to! =D
016. can you raise one eyebrow at a time: no... it's sad
017. can you blow smoke rings : dunno, never tried
018. can you blow spit bubbles : yes... =) thanks jenQ
019. can you cross your eyes : course!
020. colored hair : yes... i hate it
021. tattoos and where : noperz
022. piercings and where : one on each ear... my parents wont let me pierce my tongue
023. make your bed everyday: nah
024. what goes on first bra or underwear : undies
025. which shoe goes on first : uhm..... right?
036. speaking of shoes, have you thrown one at someone : HAHAHA YES!
037. how much money is usually in your wallet: uhm... 9 bucks
++ GROOMiNG
046. how often do you brush your teeth : sometimez 3 timez a day... but mostly 2
047. how often do you shower/bathe : every night... never really mornings
048. how long do these showers last : around...20-30 min
049. hair drying method : i just fall alseep and when i wake up.. ALL DRY! =D
051. do you swear : i try not to
052. do you mumble to yourself : hehehe... always
055. the cd player : ... i dont groom it.... freaks
056. person you talk most on the phone with : ehhh, dont talk on fone... guess the most is shin tho
057. what color is your bedroom : white
058. do you use an alarm clock : fosho
059. name one thing or person you're obsessed with: i dunno, used to be the computer/internet, but.... now its better
060. have you ever skinny dipped with the opposite sex : nahhh
062. window seat or aisle : window usually... but i dont really care
063. whats your sleeping position : side, back
064. what kind of bed do you like : uh.... one covered with pillows!
065. in hot weather do you use a blanket : sure
066. do you snore : when im sick...
067. do you sleepwalk : nahhhh
068. do you talk in your sleep : hehehe, i think i do
069. do you sleep with a stuffed animal : used to... not anymore.. i crush them
070. how about the light on : darkish... tv is good
071. do you fall asleep with the tv or radio on : tv... used to be radio
++ WHEN WAS THE LAST TiME YOU
073. were kissed or kissed someone : today! many many times.. =X
074. watched bambi : .... a while ago
075. cried : hehe.... today
076. talked on the phone : around... 6ish
077. read a book : today.... =D for 3+ hours... I LOVE THE DA VINCI CODE!!
078. punched someone : nahh
079. where do you see yourself ten years from now: married? finished with school?
080. who are you gonna be married to and where : Shin =) where? uh...... hawaii? hahahah!! who wants to come?!
081. how many kids do you want to have : 2
082. your profession : optometrist or.... optomologist
083. future school : UCLA, UCI, Cal State Fullerton? dunnooo
++ FRIENDS
084. who is your best friend : best?! ONE? Shin, but i have LOTS of really GOOD friends
085. what friend do you hang out with the most : Shin
086. what friend makes you smile the most: Shin, Jocelyn, Pam
087. friend that you fight with the most : HAHAHAHA.. Shin
088. one you talk to the most online : andrew! lol, he's my online buddy cuz he's ALWAYS ONLINE!
089. friend that you miss the most: i miss lots of my friends... vickeeeee
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heheh.. how cute!
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[03 Sep 2004|11:49pm] |
I wonder what it's like... to know that everything you've been planning for... working for... dreaming of.... is out of reach forever in one second.
I didn't know her as well as I wish I had... A few simple talks to include her in the flute section. Her innocent smiles... something no one will be able to appriciate again in this life... It's not fair that this is what happened... It's not fair for a mother to lose her beloved husband and daughter in one afternoon. I'm just happy that Julieanne is now in heaven with our Creator and she didn't enter the gates alone... but with her father. Someone she also loved dearly.
Don't waste life on meaningless things that won't follow you to heaven. Like Eric said... "live each day as if it were ur last." And for me... live it for God.
R.I.P. Julieanne... You'll be missed by many.
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Kindergarden
What were you like: Shy, VERY shy
Who was your teacher: Mrs. Endo
Who was your best friend: Christine Kim
Who did you have a crush on: Bryan Bunag
Something Random: I started liking Bryan with.. a love at first sight thing. He was the first boy I saw in class because he sat next to me. Teehee...
First Grade (1st/2nd combo)
What were you like: Bored... school was easy
Who was your teacher: Mrs. Warner
Who was your best friend: Samantha Blackler and Jamelia Morgan
Who did you have a crush on: Bryan Bunag still.. =)
Something random: I was smarter than the 2nd graders in my class even tho I was only a 1st grader... dumbasses..
Second Grade (2nd/3rd combo)
What were you like: Hyper
Who was your teacher: Mrs. Warner.. AGAIN
Who was your best friend: Samantha Blackler, Nadine Alacantara
Who did you have a crush on: Bryan Bunag & Gabriel Zuniga
Something Random: I used to play tether ball and I was quite good! Got in trouble for fighting tho.
Third Grade
What were you like: Shy
Who was your teacher: Mrs. Stanton
Who was your best friend: Samantha Blackler, Nadine Alacantara, Wendy, Neha, Link and Lorana
Who did you have a crush on: Gabriel Zuniga
Something Random: I wanted to be a book MAKER, not a writer... I actually wanted to MAKE the books.
Fourth Grade (4th/5th combo)
What were you like: SUPER SHY
Who was your teacher: Mrs. Mansfield
Who was your best friend: Stephanie, Laura, Ann and Zea
Who did you have a crush on: Teehee... Josh Echiverria and Kyle Sato
Something Random: The only 4th graders in my combo class were GUYS... Kyle, Roy and all them. =/
Fifth Grade
What were you like: Happy!
Who was your teacher: Mrs. Meserve
Who was your best friend: Elizabeth Headden, Pamela Tejano and Jon Aiu
Who did you have a crush on: Kyle Muragishi
Something Random: I was secretary of the Los Robles ASB... we did the pledge of alliegence every friday morning over the intercom. HAHA.
Sixth Grade
What were you like: ... a hard worker
What was your favorite class: Science
Who was your best friend: Elizabeth Headden, Pamela Tejano, Lauren Miyake, and Elizabeth Muro
Who did you have a crush on: no one... for the first time in my life...
Something random: HAHAHAHA, I still remember the day I met Lauren... "I'm Lauren Miyake..." ".... OHHHH, so ur Lauren.. I thot you were a pillow.."
Seventh Grade
What were you like: More outgoing
What was your favorite class: Ocelletter...
Who was your best friend: Lauren Miyake, Elizabeth Muro, Mindy Bae, Hannah Tchon
Who did you have a crush on: Edgar Lampano
Something random: I hated Mr. Duncan more than LIFE. He gave me my first demerits. Stupid Cowboy Boot wearing, Turtleneck sportin, HOLE IN THE NECK man.
Eight Grade
What were you like: really confidant, yet... made a lot of mistakes
What was your favorite class: US History with Mr. Fries
Who was your best friend: Lauren Miyake, Amanda Johnson, Martin Indrajana, Vickee Tieu
Who did you have a crush on: HAHA,... I had a crush on Bobby Gurrola and I had my first boyfriend, Kyle Sato.
Something random: Was on OG's first and only dance team and we won nationals!!
Freshmen
What were you like: SCARED SHITELESS...
What was your favorite class: Algebra with Mr. Buchholtz. That's where I met Wayne Lee, Holly Netramai, and Trevor Arnold.
Who was your best friend: Lauren Miyake, Pam Tejano, Wayne Lee and Amanda Johnson
Who did you have a crush on: I had a boyfriend, Keye Chen.
Something random: This is when school went down for me. I started slacking and cheer/band took over my life.
Sophomore
What were you like: depressed
What was your favorite class: English with Rockwood
Who was your best friend: Lauren Miyake, Kenneth Fan, Eric Fan, Michelle Bowbeer and... the biggest.. Roy Liao.
Who did you have a crush on: Still Keye Chen as my boyfriend.
Something random: I got a HIGH A in Chemistry this year with Ms. Olsen. That was awesome!
Junior
What were you like: Confused and always tired
What was your favorite class: English with Mr. Bracho.. HAHA.. funny man.
Who was your best friend: Roy Liao and Kenneth Fan
Who did you have a crush on: Kenneth Fan.. and mayb some other little ones during the year. =X
Something random: I remember liking Kenneth soOoo much... this was a hard year. I spent almost every other day at Ken's house without him knowing how I felt.
Senior
What were you like: ANGRY (cuz, everything went bad for us this year)
What was your favorite class: Jazz Band
Who was your best friend:
Who did you have a crush on: Kenneth, he was my boyfriend.
Something random: Went on a cruise to Ensenada instead of going to Sadies, but had a SLAMMING time!
First Year in College
What were you like: LONELY... HELLA LONELY
What was your favorite class: Chinese 2
Who was your best friend: (I talked to the most) Andrew Mitsuhashi, Jason Joh
Who did you have a crush on: Ken was still my boyfriend. Then, Mark Nakamura and Shin Komatsu.
Something random: Sucked. Just plain out sucked. Was a hard year... I'm glad it's over tho.
Heheh.... so bored am I!!!
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JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and betaught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds.Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous.Very stubborn and money cautious.
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[04 Jul 2004|11:34pm] |
| Your name?: | Allison | | Your age?: | 19 | | Where were you born?: | Fullerton, CA | | What time is it right now?: | 11:27 | | What are you wearing right now?: | Pajama's | | Whats your shoe size?: | 6 | | ~~Favorites~~ | </td>| food: | Japanese | | restaurant: | Jubei, Tenga Sushi | | store: | AnF, PacSun | | brand name: | AnF | | pair of shoes: | Etnies, Puma's | | fruit: | Japanese Pears | | vegetable: | BLAH. | | movie: | Moulin Rouge | | car: | VW Bug | | childhood toy: | My Blanket | | childhood memory: | Playing with my neighbors | | game: | Clue | | sport: | Soccer | | college team: | None | | ~~Which one???~~ | </td>| apple jacks/ frosted flakes: | Apple Jacks | | tv/computer: | Computer | | boxers/briefs: | Whatever works | | cookies/cake: | Cookies | | pop-tarts/cereal: | Pop-Tarts AND cereal | | love/lust: | Love | | money/presents: | Money | | ~~Random Questions~~ | </td>| Have you ever been in love?: | Yes | | If so..with who?: | Uh... | | Do you have a bf/gf?: | Yes | | who is it?: | Shin | | Would you kiss on a first date?: | Date? No. | | Whats your idea of a romantic date?: | Having a good time with intimate conversation in an environment that is easy to relax in. | | How many kids do you want?: | 2 | | Whats your favorite color?: | Blue | | What kind of jewelry are you wearing right now?: | None | | what are you eating?: | Nothing. | | What are you listening to?: | Nothing. | | Besides the computer, what else can you hear?: | Fireworks | | Whats the last thing you watched on tv?: | Spiderman | | Whats the last movie you saw in the theater?: | Dodgeball | | When was the last time you laughed?: | Today =) | | What was it you were laughing at?: | Probly something stupid Shin or Devin said. | | When was the last time you were outside?: | A few hours ago. | | What did you have for dinner last night?: | I don't remember. | | breakfast?: | Don't eat breakfast. | | If you could be anywhere right now..where would you be?: | With Shin. | | Who are you talking to right now?: | Ken online. | | Are you getting tired of this survey yet?: | No. | | Whats your favorite song?: | Hoobastank - Reason, Puddle of Mudd - Blurry | | Do you have any pets?: | Yes | | Are you addicted to these surveys?: | Yes | | Are your parents still together?: | Yes | | How long have you known me?: | This survey? A few minutes. | | Whos your best friend?: | I have a few EXCEPTIONAL ones. | | Are you glad this survey is over?: | No. |
My survey! take it! brought to you by BZOINK!
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HAHAHAHAH.. come to me michelle.. =)
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Stolen from Waka... =D
A is for age:: 19
B is for boyfriend:: yes! shinkoman...
C is for career in the future:: optometrist
D is for dad's name:: stephen
E is for essential item:: wallet, keys, chapstick
F is for favorite song:: hoobastank - Reason
G is for guys youve kissed:: 4...
H is for hometown:: hacienda heights
I is for instruments you play:: piano, flute, tenor sax, SEMI-guitar.. and oboe trying
J is for job title:: at the moment? none
K is for kids:: NONE
L is for living arrangement:: still with my papa and mama!
M is for mom's name:: Joy
N is for number of people youve slept with:: in what way? could be ZERO or MANY!
O is for overnight hospital stays:: uh.... 2?
P is for phobias:: spiders, people, closed spaces... closed spaces WITH people... BLEH!
Q is for favorite quote:: what the ho!
R is for longest relationship:: 2 years
S is for sexual position:: HAHAHAHA... the day i have one of these, is the day i have 5 kids
T is for time you wake up:: today? 1:30pm. =)
U is for unique traits:: probly my laff... ppl can identify me just with my laff
V is for vegetables you like:: uhm.... some... dont wanna list....
W is for worst habit:: trusting ppl too quick or not enuff... biting my nails.... clicking my fingers while i play soccer
Y is for yummy food:: RAMEN! or any noodles... for that matter
Z is for zodiac sign:: capricorn baby!!
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[17 Jun 2004|02:43am] |
so it all begins
sooner than expected
now i must show my true strength
and hide my all of my weakness
I need more strength than you can give
I need more than I can have myself
I need the strength of God with me
I need it to live and to live after
I will truely live in pictures of the past
Waiting can seem like an eternity
My heart can't take the weight
I won't let this go without a fight...
... nameru na....
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Ugh... I've been a bitch all week. Not to anyone, just been getting pissed off really easy after this weekend. This weekend, this girl (WHO WAS RATHER BIG) stepped on my fuking foot and broke my toe. After that I had to play 2 more soccer games where other BIG girls would step on that same foot and make tears come out of my eyes. SO, after such a horrible weekend and losing in semi's... I've been bitchy. Here's what I have to say.
I'm going to be as.... blunt as possible.
You are one FUCKING retard. (that's the only time I'll cuss... I'll try) You really piss me off. You've pissed me off for years. You've probly pissed EVERYONE off at one time or another, but this time you REALLY pissed me off. When my brother can tell me something that you've said about someone else... WHEN MY BROTHER KNOWS GOSSIP YOU KNOW IT'S GETTING AROUND. That is super messed up. What the fuck is wrong with you?? (CRAP I CUSSED)... I'm totally disgusted with how immature you are. COMPLETELY digusted. You have to grow up now. The way you manipulate people is just... amazing. You've managed to manipulate me, my close people, and now you've been caught. Just back off and go away.
Hahaha, "Why don't you jus go outside and play hide-and-go-fuck-yourself?"
ANYWAY... that's enough for my bitchy entry cuz I'm actually really happy. =) I love life right now and I don't wanna think about the cruelness that exists around me. I have enough to worry about. Tah tah.
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Stolen from Leslie. =)
KEEP A DIARY?: yes
LOOK AT YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR OFTEN?: not unless i have to
LIKE YOUR LIFE?: sure.. why not
HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND?: oh, so much more =)
IF SO WHO ARE THEY? shinster
HAVE A CRUSH?: ... look up
FOR HOW LONG HAVE YOU LIKED THIS PERSON?: i don't really know....
DOES HE/SHE KNOW?: yes!
GET GOOD GRADES?: eh... if i try
GET SCARED EASILY?: yeup
CRY A LOT?: not till recently
GET HURT EASILY?: yea... everything goes to heart
HAVE AN ENEMIE?: no
GO TO BED LATE?: yea
GO TO BED EARLY: hell no
SAVE YOUR ASSINGMENTS FOR THE LAST MINUTE?: yea
PRETEND YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT A CERTAIN PERSON BUT YOU ACTUALLY DO?: i have before as well
KNOW WHAT YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?: yes
HAVE FIGHTS OFTEN?: no
GOSSIP A LOT?: no
LIKE TO GOSSIP?:no
TALK BEHIND PEOPLES BACKS?: i do, but its not a good thing
ENJOY SCARY MOVIES?: no
ENJOY CHICK FLICKS?: yesh
PLAY HARD-TO-GET?: not really, sometimes i guess i do, but its only cuz im dumb and make mistakes
MAKE EXCUSES TO GET OFF THE PHONE WITH SOMEONE?: yea
This OR that
GLOBE OR MAP? nap.. HAHA, i mean map
SWEET OR SOUR? sweet
HUG OR KISS?: mMmM, both =)
BOY OR GIRL?: ... preference? boy
PUNCH OR KICK?: kick
LONG HAIR OR SHORT HAIR ON GIRLS?: wutever floats ur damn boat
LONG HAIR OR SHORT HAIR ON BOYS?: no baldies, no hippies
PHONE OR INTERNET?: internet
SKI OR SNOWBOARD?: snowboard
TOMGIRL OR TOMBOY?: dont fukin care
SNOW OR RAIN?: rain
SONG OR PARODY?: song
SLOW SONG OR ROCK?: both
ANGER OR FRUSTRATION?: both
MOVIES OR TV?: movies
That Special Someone
SWEET OR FUNNY?: definately both
INTELLIGENT OR GOOD-LOOKING?: definately both
TALKATIVE OR QUIET?: mMmm... in the middle. talkers get annoying... quiet ppl, are boring
SPORT-FANATIC OR BOOK WORM?: sports
ROMANTIC OR NOT?: always romantic
ENTERTAING OR BORING?: wtf.. who would want a boring person?
CALM OR ACTIVE?: in the damn middle
TRUSWORTHY OR LOYAL?: definately both
FUN TO TALK TO OR FUN TO LISTEN TO?: uh... both?
STUBBORN OR NOT?: stubborn
HARD TO GET OR EASY?: in the middle, wtf.
MATURE OR KIDDISH?: IN THE FUKIN MIDDLE...
SENSITIVE OR TOUGH?: both
CAREFUL OR CARELESS?: careful
TALENTED OR CREATIVE?: talented
CUTE OR DROP-DEAD-GORGEOUS?: wtf... wutever turns my eyes, how about that?
ANNOYING OR EASY TO ANNOY?: uh....
SHORT OR TALL?: taller than me please
BLOND OR BRUNETTE?: brunette
OLD OR NEW?: wtf...
UNIQUE OR PLAIN?: unique
EXACTLY LIKE YOU OR TOTALY DIFFERENT?: has to be in the middle...
STYLISH OR NOT?: no gays please
FUNNY OR HILARIOUS?: funny
PREDICTABLE OR NOT?: not
LOVABLE OR LIKABLE?: lovable
/"/"/"/"/"/HAVE YOU EVER..."/"/"/"/"/"
LOVED SOMEONE?: yes
NOT KNOWN IF YOU LIKE SOMEONE OR LOVE THAT SOMEONE?: yes
BEEN ABLE TO TELL WHEN SOMEONE LIKES YOU?: somewhat, but i guess i was BLIND to the one i missed for a few years
BEEN A AFRAID OF GETTING IN A RELASHIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE?: was
BEEN IN A RELASHIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE?: yes
DUMPED SOMEONE?: yesh
HAD A BROKEN HEART?: many times
BROKEN SOMEONE'S HEART?: no
BEEN REALLY EMBARASSED?: course
BEEN KISSED?: yes
KISSED SOMEONE?: yes
BEEN HUGGED FOR A LONG TIME?: yes
HUGGED SOMEONE FOR A LONG TIME?: yes... HOW THE HELL DO YOU HUG SOMEONE FOR A LONG TIME, BUT NOT BE HUGGED FOR A LONG TIME? one way hugs are not hugs....
HUNG UP ON SOMEONE?: yes
BEEN HUNG UP ON?: yes
CARED ABOUT SOMEONE WHO DIDN'T CARE ABOUT YOU?: yes, fukin bastards
HAVE YOU EVER STOLEN?: yes
KEPT A REALLY DARK SECRET TO YOURSELF?: yes
TOLD SOMEONE'S DARK SECRET?: i dont think i know anyone's dark secrets
STOLEN SOMEONE'S BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND?: no
READ SOMEONE'S DIARY WITHOUT THEIR PERMISSION?: yes
FELT LIKE SPONTANIOUSLY KISSING SOMEONE?: yes
***********ARE YOU...**************
FUNNY?: only wen tipsy, HAHA
SMART?: if i wanna be
INTELLIGENT?: if i wanna be
BRILLIANT?: no
FUN?: if the time is right
ADORABLE?: wtf...
IN LOVE?: yes
IN A RELASHIONSHIP?: yes
MAD AT SOMEONE?: no
INTO THE OPPOSITE SEX?: yes
FUN TO BE WITH?: i hope i am
EXCITING?: i have my moments
BORING?: yea, muffy agrees
PREDICTABLE?: no one pays enuff attention to know if im predictable or not
SOCIAL?: not really
TALENTED?: at typing to 10 ppl online
SWEET?: to those who deserve it
TRUSTWORTHY?: yes
STUBBORN?: yes
QUIET?: i have my moments
ENTERTAINING?: only wen ppl are laughin at the stupid things i do
SPORTY?: sort of
SENSITIVE?: yes
TOUGH?: yes
BORED RIGHT NOW?: yes
MISSING SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?: yes, stupid me for telling you not to go online to study. but studyings more important.
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[05 Jun 2004|09:49am] |
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You've got a way with me
Somehow you got me to believe
In everything that I could be
I've gotta say-you really got a way
You've got a way it seems
You gave me faith to find my dreams
You'll never know just what that means
Can't you see... you got a way with me
It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what love's made of
It's in the way we make love
You've got a way with words
You get me smiling even when it hurts
There's no way to measure what your love is worth
I can't believe the way you get through to me
Oh, how I adore you
Like no one before you
I love you just the way you are
Shania Twain - You've Got A Way
teehee... I can relate to the song! =) I'm glad I'm not alone on cloud 9.. MICHELLE!!! =D I love you girl!! Even more than ur hubby! =P If that's possible... anyway! Who else is on cloud 9.... JOCELYN!? teehee, she loves her man, yes she does. HAHAHAHA, ok, I know I'm weird, but... I'm damn happy. =) JOIN ME ON CLOUD 9! With or without that person, cuz... I don't think you need anyone to be high off air! =) Enjoying life can be the greatest!!! =D Damn, to many damn happy faces!
OH, and ROY.... i miss you! BUT I'M NOT A CRACKHEAD!!! yet.. I MEAN, never... I'll jus take the drinks for now.. =X
KAY, tah tah yah'll!
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[04 Jun 2004|04:24am] |
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Well!!! it's time for my EARLY MORNING entry!!! i seem to make one EVERYTIME its like... near those LATE or.. EARLY hours! hahahahaha.. cuz my mind gets hysterical and i go all weird... bleh!!
i'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO tired! yet i cannot sleep! mayb it was the starbucks. =/ NAH, it never did this before. yanno..... i think i need to sleep. BUT I CANT. what the fuck? OOPZ, i cussed. shit. AHHHH!!... oh.. yanno..... i dunno! what the hell ami doing tomoro? OR TODAY.. muahahahahaha.. freaking 4 am in the morning...
I THINK im gonig to shins house. he's stuck in the house today. but shugo deserves to have fun!!! senior breakfast and stuff.. LOL... wen u ditch school to eat breakfast and its LEGAL... hahahaahahha... ok, what was i talking about again?
lalala.. im tired. i want to go clubbing without the perverted guys. DUDE, u jus dance and suddenly ones humping ur ass.. HAHAHAAHHAAHAHAHAHHAAHAHHAA.. im not really laffing... how gay. keye would think its gay that i dont laff wen i write "LOL".... ok, i'll start laughing.
"just a ghost to the world.. thats exactly what i need... from up here the city lights burn.. like a thousand miles of fire.. and im here to sing this anthem of our dying day...."
i dont know what the crap this song means. but whatever. reminds me of shin. LOL... whoa, i dont wanang et honest now. itsl ike im drunk but im frekaing nto!!! at least if i were drunk i'd have a reason of why i cant type and why im saying random things, but im just likethis cuz im working off overdrive on my body since i havent been sleeping for a week now. hahahahahahahha.... this is the wrost... i had soccer today.. i ahd to condition and im still not sleeping after my body is EXTREMELY tired. AHAHAHAHAHAH.. XTREME!! thats my soccer teams name.
IM not alone online tho! vickees here! i was talking to ken and roy before! then they left around 3 and tahts when keye came back. talked to him for a little then he left and peter came on! he just left but now i have vickee!! hahahahahahahaha.. im never alone!!! muahahahahahahahahaha.. >=)
i wonder if i jus jynxed yself..... OH WELL!
lol...... my body is aching.. i need to frekaing ass esleeppp.. wthat he heck is wrng with me?
my body is shakrinnnngg and my mind keeps gong perfectly fine, just my body cannot keep up. igues my mind doesnt need energy nor rest.. jus my body does. or is my mind part of my body? idunno.. does it dcount as one meaning that my mind needs rest? or is it jus for the muscles in my body, which i need for this wekened but i dont crealy care about... no!i dont know... im tired.... really tired....
i need more music... anyone know good msuci? its not like you could tell me cuz u suck. and ur sleepng. i wish i could sleep cuz mr eally tired. wut the heck is wrong with my tyuping. c'mon fingersz!!! work!!!!!
ok, im going to stop tying cuz its not wrking very well... thanks! tyalk to you laterz. byebye! oyasumi!
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Well, last weekend I went to San Diego for a soccer tournament. We LOST in the semi's. It's really sad really, because it's the first game we've ever lost, and it was because of the ref. PLUS, it was against garden grove and we KILLED garden grove 5-0 last time in the championship game. SUCKS!!
This week I've been really stressed. Soccer's okay. Family has been on a JERK-FEST. My brother and my dad are going through PMS or something. They've been bitchy for the last 4 days. My dad suddenly takes my cell phone away because I didn't pick it up while I was in the movie theater and it was on silent. Does he hear me out? NO. Then.. the next day he tells me.. "You shouldn't be driving without your cell phone." So I was like, "fine, give it back." And he goes, "its not a matter of you getting your cell phone back. Don't drive without it." What a smartass. I'm still driving around and I don't give a FLYING FOCK what he says. I didn't even do anything. Bastard.
Other than that, I've been bored or just spending time with Shin when I can. It's been fun, but I haven't been sleeping well. It's like when I have school, except, now I don't have hmwk, so I'm just wasting time being up till 3am. =/ Oh well... it'll all go back into place after a while.
Okay, that's all for now. Soccer this weekend... bleh... then i'm free for a MONTH! WOOT!
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[25 May 2004|12:42am] |
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I haven't been writing much... but I guess I shall write even though it will bore the reader. In the end... it's me who reads them later anyway.
First off...
Congratulations Elly! =D I'm happy you made the dance team and the dance team will be only better cuz a sweetheart like you made it! =D Sad that we lost a flute, but you can't hide the dancer inside, can ya? =)
Roy is HOME! =D I am super happy! So nice to see him after all this time. UCLA trip tomoro.
Anyway...
This weekend, I went to UCI for the Orange County Cup Soccer Tournament. It was harsh. Saturday we had two games, both we won, and then I rushed my ass back home for Youth Group. It was some... weird evening service and I didn't really get much out of it except a new older friend. Hehe. Sunday I had an 8 o'clock game. TOO FREAKING EARLY! Afterwards I made it back to church to see the baptisms and hear some worship songs. The worship team rocks. I love it all! Pastor Craig wants me to play guitar. Meaning, I'll have to practice... but I would love to play guitar for the band. =) Guitar is awesome. Esp the guy playin guitar in the band now. =) We had our championship game at 530 and BEAT GARDEN GROVE 5-1. I scored!! =D Twas a great feeling. I tend to score in championship games. Hehe.
Today I woke up rather late due to the fact that I was on the internet till 130ish the previous night. Woke up and went to eat some filipino food with Pam and Trevor. It was nice catching up. I never knew that Filipino world even existed! Then I took my grandma to bingo and picked up Shin. Spent a lot of time with him tonight just talking. This boy is amazing. He never fails to amaze me everytime we meet. I don't deserve something this good.
After the talk tonight... I have a lot of stuff on my mind, yet I cannot tell nor can I finish my thoughts. What was talked about tonite has to stay with tonite and never be mentioned again. It's hard to leave so many things undone. I guess... it just has to be that way. It gets to boil in my brain... alone. *sigh*
The song "Reason" by Hoobastank is too good to be true. It fills me up and jus.... satisfies my need for something that relates. The reason....... is you.
I should never be let to read back into the pages of my past. Brings back so many old feelings. Makes me wanna cry all over again. Now I feel no need to cry. So I shall put my past behind me and only look toward the future. My future, which is unsteady and as unanswered as those thoughts inside my head. I dread the day my nightmare, my hell... comes true. The day he tells me... is the day my heart will die.
You will never read this, but... I'd rather my heart die... than leave you now. I'd rather crumble into pieces at an airport... than starve my heart of what I've longed for. Don't doubt yourself. I never doubt you.
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